Ian Whitney
II
It was not her destiny, though. There was the knife, glinting in the sun that beat down on the head of Camus’ Mersault, a stranger in his own skin. The knife had been held, threatening the throat of the boy, the child who had not obeyed. Cruelly, the holder had moved it closer to the young boy, watching the horrified faces of the riders on the bus. Then, laughing in sadistic, derisive bitterness had withdrawn the knife and pushed the child away and to the ground. Turning to face the villagers and the tourist, he had stood up, proud, angry and dangerous. A few had turned away from this evidence of what had come from their loins, their lives. They knew his anger, they had felt the poison of his bitterness and hatred. He lifted his arm high, brandishing the knife for all to see. He was the animal they abhorred. He was the animal within themselves. He looked each one in the eye until he met the one that did not waver. The outsider, the female who stared him down. His arm lowered involuntarily. Like a snake he waited for the smell of her fear. There was none. He stood silently staring. She watched and said nothing.
The others began to be less afraid. They shifted their weight and the crowd began to move. First one, then another of the men began to slowly move forward. Someone said something and soon the animal was surrounded as they closed in….slowly. The knife dropped and arms and hands took the animal and walked him away.
The women sighed, turned away. Some picked up the baskets they had dropped. Others ran to the child on the ground. Everyone ignored the tourist that had stopped the animal in its tracks. She stood watching the men move away and the women with their saris and their veils wrapped closely around them float off, children hidden and baskets returned to their heads. She didn’t move or cry out. She simply stood as though expecting something else to happen. Soon, it was night and it was silent. She woke as if from a dream and slowly as the circulation returned to her legs, she pulled her flashlight from her belt and began to move back to the road, towards the one room cottage where she stayed.
The night beyond the torchlight was pitch black. Although she knew her way by heart, it was as though she were walking through the night sky. No wind blew, no stars or moon lightened the absoluteness of the black night. She was the void, not the space around her. She felt nothing as she moved silently forward on the bits of dirt and asphalt visible in front of her. The silence, the empty darkness held danger, she knew, but, yet it had become all too familiar, the dark danger of a night without light. Soon sounds penetrated her consciousness. The sound of footsteps approaching broke the silence of her slow movement. The man who had been chosen as her ‘guide’ called out to her. “Maim Saheb! Maim Saheb! Wait!” She stopped and waited. Smiling and laughing he joined her. “Be careful! Snakes, jee!” She smiled and laughed. He caught her arm and pointed to the pool of light in front of her. “Cobra! Don’t step” She looked down. In front of her, lay part of a yellow snake spotted with alternating rectangles and spots. Only a section was visible, the rest seemed to have been cut off and even that had been spared her eye. Her guide quickly explained that they must move off towards the middle of the road. They must not touch it, nor step over it: to do so, would mean bad luck, the bad luck that had come to a driver in Uttar Pradesh. The unfortunate driver had, on taking a sharp turn too quickly, found a snake stretched across the road before him. There was no time for him to stop, nor for the snake to make a rapid escape. The result had been what sounded like a bad case of smallpox. The man had woken up the next day covered with discolorations similar to the markings found on the snake. No matter how many pujas he made, nor his pilgrimages to the south of India to ask forgiveness from the Nagas, erased those markings. The lesson? Do not harm a naga. Do not harm a nagini. Do not harm a snake or you will be harmed, marked for life.
She had wondered about that bit of snake, just in front of her, in the road. No head, no tail, just a section. So soon after the knife-wielding incident, it had given her pause. Had it been a warning? Was it a warning to say nothing, to tell no one, to not speak or the wrath of the Nagas would hurl itself on her? There had been no reason to suppose this, but all the same, she wondered….
A man had returned to the village. He had returned from two years in prison. He was young, a child, really, barely twenty. His crime had been one of passion, yet calculated. He had found his young wife with another man in one of the cottages in the ‘resort’ in which she, the tourist, stayed. The young man had beheaded his young, helpless wife with an axe and brutally chopped her body eight times. The story was told her by another tourist, another art historian, a regular visitor to this place. She had told it first like the villagers. The woman was killed by her husband who had caught her with her lover. Told again, on another occasion, the story went that there had been no lover. The young man, the child man, had imagined a relationship existed between a tourist and the young, hapless wife. There had been nothing. She had only been washing the floors and the male tourist had been off on a motorcycle trip with his girlfriend from Germany. The child/husband saw his wife in the cottage and enraged and on drugs and the alcohol that passed for gin – it was made from a local still she had been shown, in the fields – had grabbed an axe and viciously attacked the young thing who was on her knees scrubbing the stone floor of the cottage. There had been much blood, and screaming. The boy husband had collapsed at the site of what he had done. His sentence, because it was assumed that even though there had been nothing going on, she had been doing her job as cleaning lady and the tourists were not even in the hotel, that even with all these facts on the side of the prosecution, it was assumed that because of her youthful beauty she must have somehow made the man tourist interested in her. The art historian had remarked that when she had spoken to the tourist, both he and his girlfriend had assured her that they had never even spoken with the young woman – in fact, had not even noticed her, and when shown pictures of her, had not even recognized her. She had been one of the nameless ones, the servants, the Dalits, the slaves that this once royal heir never noticed. He was in India for a lark, a change from the old stone of his country. He liked his beer and his girlfriend and they were on their way to Goa to lounge on the beach. The sentence the boy husband received was two years for willfully cutting off the head of his girl wife for absolutely no reason whatsoever.
The boy man returned from prison to this same village and, was, then, at the time of her witnessing of the knife wielder and the warning of the Nagas, serving food in the little tourist restaurant across the dirt road from the resort cottages. Perhaps she had seen him? Perhaps he had served a plate of rice and peas as she taught a few of the children whose parents had taken the subsidies from the government to send their children to school and then sent their children, instead, to the Caves to sell souvenirs. They had wanted to learn English so they could talk to the tourists and make more money. She had enjoyed the quickness in which they had picked up the vowels and the short phrases she had taught them. Upon hearing the story of the boy husband, she wondered.
Soon after that it became clear that she had seen and perhaps heard too much. The local ‘baba’ – an educated man from the south in his thirties, who had chosen the life of the sage and lived in a tiny mud room he had built himself outside the village – came to warn her of this boy husband. The ex-con had been heard to be making threats against her, and Baba suggested that she leave. The resort’s owner had suffered a heart attack and there was no one who would be able to help or defend her. She would be safer if she moved on. The convict was insane, the village would deal with him in their own way.
She had seen too much and she was not unhappy to move on. Still, she wondered. He had not been the one wielding the knife, he had not had any association with the ones who stored rifles in the many caves both known and hidden that she had seen. There seemed to be no reason, but for the fact that the art historian was known to make trouble and she had been friendly with the art historian and even shared her profession. More to the point, she had been teaching the children English…..a truly dangerous thing….and, she was the outsider, the female….
III
The sands of the Sahara rose higher and higher as her leg slipped ever more deeply into their fastness. It took a great deal of strength and exertion to pull each leg up with its load of tiny, dry earth, the remnants of life reduced almost to dust. It reminded her of her childhood, slogging through drifts of newly fallen snow as she valiantly tried to place her tiny feet and short, heavy legs in their little red, rubber boots in the footsteps of her much older and taller sister as they took the shortcut through the back to get to school before the bell rang. The difference was that her legs were a bit longer, much heavier and she was much, much older. And, she had no boots….She envied the soldiers in their knee-high coverings of thick leather. She had tried everything from Nikes to Birkenstocks, but had settled on bare feet. The shoes gathered more sand and made the effort much more difficult. It was dangerous she knew. She heard the voice of an archaeologist she knew, repeating, as if in a trance, ‘there are too many snakes…too many snakes’ and, “we had to pull a scorpion off the worker’s ear”. The woman had been documenting a tomb, mostly cleaned with little sand. A beautiful tomb they wanted to share with the tourists. She had come back, shaken and ready to allow the delays….”too many snakes, there are too many snakes”.
So, she had stopped the unbearable pain in her back and sat down on a firm hard surface she had seen from the path. The sand had almost reached her thigh and the tourists she had been walking with were happy to let her sit while they, tall and confident and healthy, went on to the tomb of a long-dead queen no one ever visited. She watched them move quickly through the desert sea and tried to stay calm. If it hadn’t been for the library with its marvelous collection of rarities and scholarly patrons from around the world, she would have left long ago. You see, a desert, flat, few dunes spread out before her until it met and blended with a yellow, dun-colored gray cloud in the distance. The blue skies were gone, the sun hidden far beyond its dirty gray veil. No dramatic National Geographic photograph of rolling, orange dunes punctuated only by a singular trail left by a lonely, isolated migrating herd of elephants. No storm threatened, just the existential angst of barrenness.
Suddenly, immediately, surreal, a single foot soldier appeared. Walking confidently and surely along a solid path where no sand threatened his high, thick leather boots, the soldier kept his head bowed to the ground, watching each step and carefully ignoring her presence. They, she and the tourists, had missed this easy path. They had slogged and panted their way through the sand sea. It must have been a subject of great comic relief to the military who had, obviously, been observing the three middle-aged, overweight westerners. She could almost see the young man trying to hide his smile as she sat there ruefully rubbing her calves. She watched as he disappeared down the hill towards the small oasis of palm trees with its one, very tiny village.
She had once been to that village. It was a road that turned at a precise right angle straightening out to pass an irrigation structure still worked by water buffalo. The animals moved slowly, methodically in the afternoon sun. Surrounded by vegetation and bordered by a square of royal palms, the buffalo walked in their unending circle, brown wood, wet, dark- gray backs, white horns glistening in the field of green and gold. The image, pastoral, romantic out of time, blended with the stench of the sewage ditch and the low water canal filled with refuse as wood smoke burned the humidity and the mosquitoes away. Her mind slipped back to another field, another time, in India. The cotton had been high and ready for picking. The many holes in a similar dirt road had confused her as she had stared out through a thin row of trees at an unexpectedly large pool of water. The holes, she had been told, were made by the many pythons that roamed the area. Called ‘cobras’ by the locals, or sometimes even ‘tigers’, their long, gray bodies sometimes stretched out from the caves as the moved to darker moister areas. She wasn’t sure that she believed the holes were of their making, though. Not being a herpetologist, thank goodness, she did not have any idea. She thought they must have had something to do with posts or markings since there were so many, maybe to test the ground for stability? She really didn’t know.
Her one close encounter with a python or cobra – she never saw either its head or tail had been in the group of huts behind the field behind the cottage resort. The art historian had taken her there and had left her outside the temple building while she had inquired if the ‘god’ was there. The question and the behavior had aroused her suspicions and she was fairly sure – particularly when she remembered a story about a large snake in the cafeteria and another one that had been killed, then given a bowl of milk and afterwards had its own shrine built to it near the small tables in the ‘garden’ of the cottage resort. Her attention, however, was interrupted as a woman, about her own age, very thin and dressed in a grey shift, not a sari, emerged from a doorway. Her skin was milky white as was her hair. Staring with undisguised curiosity and apparent joy, the woman watched her. The whiteness of the skin was broken by patches of pink and the albino’s eyes. She had understood that all the residents of this little place had been brought there as children. In fact, some weeks before, an unexplained event in Cave 10, had its explanation in a ceremony where a four year old boy had been dedicated to the group. As she and the woman stared at each other in wonder and surprise, a voice from the darkness behind her, called the woman back inside. At that moment the art historian returned and beckoned her into the temple where she noted that the ‘god’ was absent.
After a brief moment to show respect and leave a donation, the two left. As she followed the art historian down the path leading away from this tiny group of huts, she heard a sudden ‘ah!’ ring out. The voices were female and just behind her. She turned and looked. Three women were standing perpendicular to her with their hands clasped in prayer and looks of joy and pleasure it would be hard to find anywhere. These women seemed in a moment of ecstasy. She followed the direction of their bows and saw a pile of bricks out of which and over which, the long, grey form of a snake had emerged and sunk back into. She stood transfixed as their ‘god’ and, obviously, that was who or what had been meant by the term, moved slowly and endlessly. The last woman turned to her and beamed her a smile of joy, delight and was it gratitude? A look she had rarely seen on anyone’s face. It had stopped her from the shout she had been about to hurl at the back of the art historian, carefully bowed and moving quickly away.
She had understood that she had been honored and by being honored had brought honor to this little family of women in gray saris and shifts.
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